April 23, 2020
All the doom and gloom isn’t
so satisfying
emotive but not everlasting we are
moved by sadness
but we hold onto what makes us
feel warmer carry it in
our bodies we cower from
the dark always looking
over our shoulders moving toward
what is light and safe against all odds
I started to write
another downer but I can’t bear to
wear a frown for any longer
It’s never fit
quite right on
my face My muscles
don’t like to
move that way down
towards the ground they’d rather pull
up around my teeth
What is it that makes you smile
that space you can stay
a while in
spending all of your time inside
melting away day after day
and night after night
under the stars with open arms
I’ll be there today
A bright place
where I can sit peacefully
where light can find me
Quiet rain hit against our windows yesterday
it felt unlike the spring days
we’ve been having lately
Sun moving in and out of the clouds
playing peek a boo
through the cracked windows
I welcome the change
Small wins
Made a hot toddy in the evening
with cinnamon whiskey
joked of things gone wrong
and planned for our next meeting
over Netflix recs with
friends I haven’t seen
in person since December
let a soy candle burn
promising some rest
perhaps tonight
I will sleep without waking
